Im posting this so we get to know everyone better, and understand why they do the things they do. Its really stupid, but its important to me to know why people act the way they act and to understand them, here is my story:
I was a quiet girl in kinder through 1st grade. I never had any friends besides my friend Lizah, though she was my only friend back then. I always got bullied because I would cry a lot, and for other reasons that are unknown. I am a very emotional person, and i was very fragile and timid. So if i ever got bullied, i would cry until i left school. I tried to stand up for myself and i tried to tell teachers, but i would tell them what happened so much that they thought i was making it up and passed it off as tattle-tailing. I was never going to get the teachers to listen to me, so started acting up to get theyre attention. But I was being very bad, though i didnt know it at the time. I still remember i was only 7 when I held a girl up against the wall with my arm on her neck, and i regret every moment of that. I felt so bad, I couldnt believe i had done those things, so i tried to act calmer and quite again when i went to 3rd grade. It actually worked, too. I had gained more friends, and i was always the funny one, well me and Marckopolo (thats is ign plus some letters). But in the fourth grade, i started to get targeted by bullies again, and I would always cry at home. The worst was when i was called an a**, and no one helped me except one girl, who even though i tried to thank her by befriending her, she wouldnt except it. Thats when singing and my dogs were my closest companions. It was then when i discovered my love for music, and love for dogs. I finally stood up for myself once again, but i talked it out instead of taking a more dangerous way. I finally gained my friends back, though my best friend lizah was not my bet friend no more, she was my bullies bff. i had to find a new bff so i found my best otaku friend for ever, Identity unknown (Im not telling u her name). Thats also when i started to get into video games and anime and drawing. Soon i was addicted to all of those things. thats when i found MC, and Angel_Girl (Adria) and TexasNinja22 (Tori) introduced me to CB. i made friends here, and i was more than happy. I am now a calm person (sorta) and i do everything, make people laugh, care for others, anything! Though I still lash out when i see bullying going around, because its still happening to me, and Im going to 6th grade. i now have many friends, who have helped me grow tougher (though sometimes they still think Im a fragile little girl, which i kinda am, and every time i fall they all come to me to help). I still get bullied, but i dont care anymore. If someone makes fun of me for something i do, i dont care either. Im not here to impress them. Though, sometimes that shy little girl inside of me gets out, and i sometimes cry when i get bullied. but not all the time.
Through my friends, i have become braver, and i now am not afraid to confess my feelings to people, even if those people are who i have a crush on. i am stronger than i used to be, i am braver, and not bothered by people calling me weird. but i am still a shy little girl inside, and i am caring, kind, and emotional, very emotional. I have grown stronger on the outside, too. The bullies that i had and have sometimes get into fights with me, though i usually dont fight back. I have been hit so muted that i am usually not affected by punches. Though some people who hit me are not bullies, and one of those people is my sister (pokemon_lion) she hits me and kicks me that i have no choice to fight back, and when i fight back she blames everything on me and i get in trouble. Anyways even though i still get bullied, and i still cry a lot, my friends irl and on cb have helped with me that stuff. So thats my story.
I hope u guys now understand my ways, and i hope u share ur story by telling me yours.